Ugh.

I find it so amazing that I can absolutely hate this boy. I mean, he breaks my heart. Its really sad that I just want him, no matter what he does... I could never not love him. I just want him with me, I don't want to talk, or fight, or yell, or scream, or anything. I just want to lay with him and feel the peace I feel with his arms around me. I don't want to think about anybody or anything they could say to me. I just really want him here. I don't even care if he doesn't want me. I'm nuts. I'm seriously psychotic.